BirdSong 4-17-17

BirdSong

Make my day

It’s not even dawn yet

And you’re ready to play

Open window season

Primavera, yes!

When I can’t sleep

God sends you to sing to me

I’m so grateful, for

A smile in the night

Gifts from the Giver, my Giver

So that’s why you’re not sleeping,

little feathery ones

Who needs beauty rest

When such beauty abounds

A symphony of sounds

Pre-dawn bird song

Who are you that you do his bidding?

A great example, that’s who

Thank you, Lord

For teaching me more each day

thru birds and song

Not just one

Now there’s more

You know they sing for me

They know they sing for You

Thank you, Papa

For sitting in the audience with me

“Let everything that has breath praise the Lord” (Psalm 150:6)

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what’s in a healing

Is this a question or the beginning of an answer? Hmmm.

What exactly IS in a healing? In my life (almost said at my age, ooops) I’ve both witnessed many and experienced several of my own. Whether physical, emotional, mental or spiritual…there are all kinds of healings.

Today I’m thinking of physical healing. Having chronic pain for 15 years, it’s safe to say it is on my mind. A lot! Too much! Even after much prayer for me and by me, where is the healing? God? Are you there? Of course he is! I experience Him daily and many of my prayers are answered…all the time.

Today I report that I’m actually getting better! Why this doesn’t happen all in one day, one instant, I don’t know. I do know there are things to learn along the way, friends we would not have met otherwise…a life to live!

So I encourage my friends, family and fellow bloggers who have prayed for, thought about and followed my healthy journey. Let’s never give up. God does have a plan. He’s always had a plan. And we have choices to make every day which may affect the timing, and even aspects, of our answers along the way. Sometimes an answer is right in front of us but we choose a different route that takes us on a detour. I believe God uses even the detours to bring about His purpose.

Some day we will know all of the answers to our questions. Some people say we won’t even care at that time. Again, hmmm. I think that my inquiring and analytical mind will still want to know. We may know in the instant we arrive at our eternal Home. Or He may allow us to discover these answers as we go, as we meet and visit with every person who has impacted our lives, in every direct and indirect way. Ohhh, this is a subject I love to think and talk about…how we will spend our time when we finally get to that completely perfect Destination!

So back to ‘what’s in a healing’. For me, it’s been…life! Here’s why I say life. Back in the early years of my dis-ease, there were moments – especially in the dark – I thought I might not make it through the night. My brain felt like it was moving inside my head. My world was upside down; pain was off the charts, indescribable. There were panic attacks. Tears. Dependency. Debilitation.

After those early days, weeks, a few months – I was on my path to wellness. My healthy journey had begun! And wow am I glad that it wasn’t revealed to me that nearly 15 years of choices and decisions, would affect my healing. Yet, maybe I would’ve welcomed the news that at least I’d live long enough to see my granddaughter become a teen and there’d be another granddaughter to enjoy. And not from a wheelchair or even pharmaceutically incarcerated!

Often I have described this as a roller coaster ride. Today I pictured it as a dance because it’s been one step forward, two steps back. Two steps forward and one or two steps back.  But always there is forward motion. Seeking and searching. Finding and applying. Knowing, yet not knowing. What I’ve come to believe is that there is no panacea. But there are so many good things that God has provided us in nature, as well as the intelligence, wisdom and knowledge of how the human body works and does not work. How it heals and does not heal. Through things that we consume and by using therapies and technologies that assist the body’s natural healing process. There are many things I do, but today I will share just a few. I consume CBD in different forms, kratom in multiple strains, Miror EPF…and I’m a big fan of my Ortho-Bionomy practitioners. Look it up, it may resonate and help someone you know or yourself! All of the things I do have good side effects.

Today there is less pain. I’m sleeping much better most nights. And mornings are easier – to know me is to know that this is HUGE!

So there’s been life and discovery and ideas for the plan that’s been there all along. All of the answers are not clear yet. I do know that my desire is to glorify God in my life. I have many opportunities to do that, every moment of every day.

And so do you, my friend! As we ask our questions, we need to expect answers! Have a little faith. When ‘stuck’ on the edge of our trek to higher places in life, know without a doubt that when you call on the name of Jesus, He will arrive immediately. Then link your arm in His and walk without fear. Know that Habakkuk 3:19 says this:

‘The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
    he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
    he enables me to tread on the heights.’

 

 

 

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StormSense

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StormSense

Sense the storm

Brighter flashes

Louder rolls of thunder

Counting seconds in between

Come closer I say

I’m not scared

Memories of lawn chairs

Aluminum no less

Mom and me

Front porch

Heaven will be Heaven with mom and chairs again.

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all over the board

Theoretically thinking, a nap sounds amazing.  Yeah, no…easier thought than done.

Today it seems like I’m the ‘iron’ piece in the Monopoly game, except the ‘wrinkles’ under me are actually on the game board of Life. And it’s not really a game. It is real life and the spinner is out of control.

Thoughts, emotions and even prayers ~ are all over the board. Jesus, won’t cha puh-leeeez take the wheel?

The emojis of my exhausted mind and fatigued body are not lol’ing.

Since doing all things natural is the way I try to roll, I concocted a smoothie adding a new kratom strain that is supposed to be a Mood Booster. Guessing now that a double or triple dose was called for.

It must be one of those good times to just be thankful for my many blessings, naming them 1 by 1. Just? Isn’t that what I should be doing all the time?

It’s no big surprise that my devo this morning was right there where it needed to be. God’s eye is on the sparrow and it most certainly is on me and you. He knows the day we are all going to have before we ever barely make it to the bathroom. Suppose the things He’s showing us and saying to us might even be a forewarning? Day 42 of Seeing the Unseen by Randy Alcorn could’ve been my sign. I even scribbled a few nuggets of it into my journal, like:

“I want to stay in the habit of ‘glancing’ at my problems and ‘gazing’ at the Lord” ~ Joni Eareckson Tada.

and from 2 Corinthians 4:16-18,

So we’re not giving up. How could we! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on us, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without his unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for us. There’s far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever.”

(I added a couple verses and quoted the Message here cuz it was more fun talking about potatoes and a celebration both in the same sentence!)

Together let’s strive to tread on the heights with the feet of a deer. The Sovereign Lord does give us strength and we know that He is near. You and I need only to call on Him.

Thanks for sharing my day. I hope you’ll share something of yours with me…and sleep well, my friends!

 

 

 

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Wind 3-6-17

WIND

in the air, on my face

whole trees dancing

branches and leaves, abandoned to self

whistling fury, demanding its way,

bringing about change

whether good or bad…

warm currents of spring promise,

death cold of winter storms…

I’ve always loved the sound,

the feel, the sights ~ of wind

clouds racing across the sky ~

of beautiful blue or threatening gray

In awe of God’s power displayed in these winds,

no less in the gentle breezes of summer

Wonderful Holy Spirit always comes to mind

He also brings dancing and change

and fury

Listen to hear Him, be open to feel

See His handiwork all around if you will

Beautiful and threatening

yet gentle as a breeze

I’m in love with all of this

And grateful beyond measure

That I am His.

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the message is in the details

God is still in the prayer answering business. Today I received a miracle, temporary or maybe not…it’s all good! Last week I blogged about that disheartening dental visit in Arkansas where I was told my crown could not be put back on…the tooth could not be saved. Today at my own (and favorite) dental office, prepped for surgical extraction, I was given other possible options!

To set the tone for this grateful day, let’s back up a minute to two days ago when the ‘usual’ dental anxiety hit me during one of those not so fun events of weakness and brain foggy fatigue. Fearing one of those might hit me while in the dental chair, a meltdown seemed easy enough to accomplish, so I had one! Then on the phone one of their sweet dental assistants who ‘gets’ me said we’d just be prepared and if I didn’t feel well enough, we could just take the x-ray, talk about the options and reschedule. Today I was determined that fear would not rule me. I put on Misty Edwards’ Yahweh (I Will Not Deny Him) set my heart and mind toward better thinking and I was ready! When you are in right thinking like that, you might as well ask for a miracle and so I did! At the same time I decided that if my tooth was not healed when I got there, I’d be okay and would even refuse oral sedation to calm me. Face it head on and trust. Today was gonna be different! Kevin prayed on the way and I felt strong and well walking in!

So should we be surprised that my dentist recommended we re-schedule for an exploratory visit…numb me, clean up what’s there and see what we have to work with – maybe a post and crown, maybe just a new crown, maybe an extraction after all.  Praise the Lord!

All these details make for a miracle message that I don’t want to forget. And I hope it resonates with someone out there. Who can’t sympathize with a little dental anxiety? And who doesn’t need a little reminder to chill and trust? You’d think by now I’ve learned that it’s never ever as bad as my mind decides it’s gonna be!

If you are following my healthy journey blogs, I am now home after just four weeks of treatment for RA, Fibromyalgia and all the uninvited symptoms and conditions that tag along. And I am doing really well! When compared to recent, unbearable flares and many years of dis-ability, there has been great improvement since going out to the Neurologic Relief Center. It’s been a learning experience…a great experience! My healing and dropping pain levels began there and is continuing here at home using several methods of treatment and therapies. I will blog more about them specifically next time.

Until then, thanks for sharing my healthy journey details. It’s my desire that someone is helped as I am being helped. And join me on the high places that only my God can take me to! As Habakkuk 3:19 says:

“The Sovereign LORD is my strength; he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, he enables me to tread on the heights”

 

 

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changes in latitude, not attitude

Monday was very emotional (both bad and good…for several reasons). The most devastating was finding out that a crown that had come off could not be re-cemented and the tooth could not be saved. Oral surgery is now on the schedule for next week back home. Already not feeling well (having one of these episodes that seems to come with the program that I did not sign up for – weakness, nausea, headache-y, fatigue), I left the dentist by myself in a town I’d never been in before with the fuel tank on E …and had a good cry at the gas pump. Friends I’d been staying with had packed up and left for Florida that morning (yayyy for them), and I shouldn’t really be alone right now. So my husband was boarding a plane and I would be picking him up in Fayetteville later that afternoon. I did have that to be excited about!

For the 3-day weekend (no clinic on Fridays) I’d checked out a micro-current unit and used it quite a bit. During the previous weeks I’d come to really like that treatment and felt some better afterwards. So I ran several protocols each day, but one of them caused me to flare for two of those days, one being Monday. So now I’m on a break from both that as well as another therapy that had caused flares last week. The first two weeks that didn’t happen and I had felt stronger after those sessions (their target area was different). Every other therapy and all adjustments were very positive and my pain levels have gone down! Since the first day here, I have been seeing great results quickly.

So I’m reporting good news that I know I will be well one day soon. It may not happen in all the ways I was expecting, but it is happening! Getting up in the mornings are much easier. No more level 10 pain, mostly 5-6! Sleep has improved some, but still not enough hours. My central nervous system is still stuck mostly on the gas pedal, but sometimes the brake. And we are working on that. I’m so very hopeful!

Tomorrow I will have five more of my favorite treatments…this includes all three of the Dr’s, so I’ll be getting off to a good start for the weekend travel. It will do me good to see family, friends and dogs again. It’s only been two weeks but when you don’t feel well, there’s ‘just no place like home’. So it was a no-brainer to go home to my own dentist for this procedure. I already don’t do dental work very well in these years of illness. Monday night during the wee hours of sleeplessness I allowed fear to creep in. This had to do with my tooth, afraid of pain that was not even there yet! Even though faith and prayer are my ‘go to’s’, I found myself in a dark place for a short time. We’ve all been there, and this too shall pass, so my next blog entry will have a lighter note I’m sure!

I’d had such a great time with my friends who arrived back home last night. I think we laughed way too much to be legal, but it IS the BEST medicine. Daily we see little miracles here in NW Arkansas. There’s nothing like seeing people with more smiles and less pain!

Till my next blog, I’m still treadin on high!

 

 

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